RUDE AWAKENING

Woke up this morning to fists pounding my door. Specifically my grandma waking me up to help her. This may sound pretty dick headed but i didn't want to wake up. Hoping it was a dream and that when i would wake it wouldn't be real. But it was very much real this morning,i opened my door almost mad at how persistent she was with that pounding. I investigated to see what was sooooo important she had to wake me. She initially gave me a run down of everything she was feeling and demanded me to do things for her. First thing she requested for was coffee. From the first request i knew she was playing wolf and that's what set it off for me.

OK, go and judge me and say "don't be so mean help your grandma" but I've been doing this for years. Since i was in elementary. Years of ware has broken me down and I've learned to decipher what was important to wake up for. I do this every morning with her,she pounds on my door to wake me up like its an emergency and demands me to take her blood glucose (shes diabetic) and i do agitatedly most mornings half asleep, occasionally stabbing my finger with the instrument they use instead of hers. Her readings are ALWAYS usually in the high end, mostly due to the fact that at night, she has these five course meals each meal loaded up with salty foods. When morning comes her glucose is elevated and has her dizzy and left shaken.

I'm at the point where i just want to rip my hair out and shoot every person that comes by our house to sell my grandma food. Like vegetables ,meat,fish..you name it. She even has people grocery shopping for her at times. Shes sooooo stubborn and never learns. EVERY morning is a rude awakening of her dealing with the consequences of what she feeds her face with.

TODAY of all days THANKGIVING was no different. Same awakening but different some how. She starts screaming and saying how shes dizzy but yet she can walk to the living room screaming and shouting demands at me. BUT today she tells me "call 911 i want the ambulance,i'm not feeling good"

My brother still recovering from his hang over is pissed at the revelation of her request knowing that hed be the one to spend all morning in that emergency room. The ambulance came and when they told her she should go to the emergency room and get tests done. She then told them "oh nvm i dont need to go,i'm just gonna lay down and rest my eyes " i merly laughed at this.

So you can begin to understand why most morning i lecture her and call her bluff. I'm not being a bitch, i do all of this because i care. If i didnt care i'd let her get away with everything. But you have to understand i do it all out of love. She has so much going .Huge reason why i wont tell my family about me. WE already have a lot to deal with every morning when grandma cries wolf. I'll get through it and suffer silently ...call me stubborn..but where do you think i got it from ? EXACTLY