NAWWWWMAAAAANNN

YAAAAAAAAAAHHHHH I KNOW

Its been more than a few minutes...hrs maybe. I was never really consistent with it. I guess a apart of me wanted to ignore the on going fact of my "glocs" aka glaucoma. It felt like dead weight trailing after me. I wanted it lifted,so i left it behind and blocked it from view ( as if that's even possible). It wasn't something i could ignore very easily, the clarity of my vision daily is just a reminder of its presence. Plus, its sooooo depressing talking about it. But i am. I haven't talked to friends about it, never brought it up ever. If they asked , i kept it simple, to avoid having to over share or keep nagging about the same thing but different scenario ish business. Its exhausting sometimes, sometimes i have to remind myself to set my alarm just to wake up to keep reg schedules with meds. Its exhausting. There are days where i wanna say "fuck it" and go with out it but then it hits me a few seconds later and i wake up frantic and having the urgency to take them. I never want to take my sight for granted again,I'm blessed to have what i have.

On a lighter note, i've found things to calm me down. I started making bracelets :3. Kind of random ..i know. But i've been making them for friends and what not. Instantly calms me down when I'm in a pickle jam.

ALOHURR.....I've just realized that i post way more interesting ish on my twitter (@ASHLEILOW) then i do anywhere else. For whatever reason..IDK. For example, i never post new post i make on here on my facebook. Why? Because my dads girlfriend follows me. Not literally,but i know she keeps tabs and probably tells my dad ( whom i don't live with) So spare me for wanting to keep on the down low ( not really) Myspace is dead to me, i still go on..just because sometimes and am reminded constantly why i don't. Weird people I've never met before try to contact me and stir up some "connection" NOT HAPPENING. AND TWITTER..well is open domain. It's the only place i actually update my new posts with.

NEWEST PURCHASE:

I dont know its official name and what the kids are calling it now a days. I just call it a finger armor :) Filigry-ish with a diamond finish. I got it from FOREVER21 if you can believe that for $7. I highly recommend it. AND I'm pretty sure it comes in gold too, but with a different design.

OH and the cup is real...plastic. Honest to blog looks like a real paper/coffee cup. IF your on OAHU,snag one at either Walmart($?) of Ross ($4). A little goes a long way.. GO GREEN!

Walking in DownTown i'm instantly INSPIRED by this old mans shirt. I just want to take it apart and make either a top or skirt with it. TRUST ME..its possible to do either

AND here's the example of a shirt turned skirt :) i shouldn't be allowed 50 ft near a boys closet. I will steal your shirts and make skirts! JK nooooo i wont. But it sure is tempting.

SEEING THIS at the bus stop on the WINDWARD side is the creepiest thing i've ever encountered.HANDS DOWN beats are the crazies i've met. I walk by at it says " HI, whats your name?"