Its been a minute, but dont doubt for a second that i forgot. There have been nights where i'd sit at the computer fighting sleep to get my thoughts out and gain clarity ,not wanting to go to sleep with all this woe. But as you can see, those entries never made it and i would end up with whole entries, only deleting them after i wrote what i needed to theraputically. I never meant it for anyone to read,simply because...well just.
GLAUCOMA...whats to say really? It hasn't gone away. I cut the bottom of my lashes weekly,due to the fact that drops i put in my eyes kind of make them grow productively fast . I should complain, but they grown into the corners of my eyes and tickles.They also block my peripheral vision a tad .Majority of the reason why i don't post is because i have no new updates about it, I'm dealing and taking one day at a time. But my life has changed in time...every little thing adds up.
LIKE WHAT? Well the makeup i use is a lot softer.By softer i mean for eyeliner, i cant put that much pressure when applying so i went on a hunt for the softest pencil i could fine.(HIGHLY recommend urban decays line..perfection) Eye makeup remover has to be eye friendly. By eye friendly i mean if i get it into my eyes i wont go blind/make things worse. You'd be surprised how hard finding it was. But i did, i highly recommend soy face cleanser by FRESH. Its all natural, i got it into my eyes a few time and it didn't sting at all,surprisingly.
BACK TO SCHOOL again and reading as proven to be the most difficult of all taks i've been taking on. THIS is suppose to be my thang tho..i love to read,regardless the material at hand. It such a horrible ordeal to sit thorough now and at all costs, i avoid it. I only read when i abso loutly have to. My glasses are useless, they jsut give me pounding headaches after an hr of reading. So option numero twas is a magnifyer. A magnifyer? Its a sheet rather per say and i lay it over the sheet/book and it magnifies it up to 4x. You'd understand if you saw how small the font was, youd swear they made it for ants to read. People in my class..normal people couldnt even read it straight without stumbling on the worlds and re-reading to smooth out any confusion they might've had on round one of reading it. Its a work out for the eyes i tell ya and at the end of it i just find myself closing my eyes shut with an ice pack over my eyes to stop the light thumping that gradually comes in when i read for too long.
THE BEST thing that's happened to me tho during this whole ordeal was a gift i recently received from my boss. It was suppose to be a Christmas gift, in which i received just a few weeks ago. It took my by surprised, i had initially wanted to give it back. It was too grand of a gift to have to receive. But he explained to me why "GOD" felt that this was the right gift for me.He had been presented with an offer from a company that distributes flea and tick products, stating that if he bought a certain amount that they'd give him the free gift. Standing in the hall way of the vet office ,it stopped me in my tracks and made my head cock to one side in confusion. Was he giving me a lifetime of flea and tick products as a Christmas gift ? i thought. It was there that he placed in my hands a NOOK.I was speechless and emotionally triggered to cry silently in utter disbelief. I just cant explain how much this meant to me to have it.If you know me...you know me well enough to know... the written language is my life. Its the sweetest thing i've ever known.That day i had felt so defeated with my eyes, but it gave me hope again...
>>IM GOING TO make a list of all the songs that play duirng each entry from now on :) A lot them are short,i know it seems like im taking forever to write this because each song typically runs from 3-4 minutes. BUT nvm i take that back, i am taking a long time. My eyes are still blurry..but my hands are moving. So excuse my grammar and spelling. I'm not perfect...that's evident.
1)Till it happens to you-Corrine Bailey Ray
2)Heard em' say-Kanye West
3)You got me-The Roots
4)Nastradamus-Nas
5)Flava in ya ear-Craig Mack
6)All falls down-John legend feat Kanye West live
7)If i ruled the world-Lauren hill feat Nas
8)Two wrongs-Wyclef John
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