Today was a lot harder to swallow then i imagined going into it. Materialistic affection of love threw up in my face this morning. Everywhere i looked love was displayed in every shape and form. Literally nauseating and a low blow to stomach for the hopeful single.
Although i remain single and i bash Valentines day, doesn't mean i never experienced it. Its been a few yrs since I've celebrated. Every one after that I've always had a valentine. But every year I've gained a deeper appreciation and love for myself and how far I've com along since then. Being in my last relationship, i did the worst thing a person could ever do to themselves. I lost myself and enveloped my world around his to cater his needs before mine. Stupid move? Yes...did i regret it? At that time no,but now? Yes. You do the unthinkable when your in love, your self moral judgment is clouded and compromised in the given situation to accommodate another. Every phase is a lesson learned.
But like every story ever told, there's always another behind it. Valentines Day is a reminder of my broken family. Sorry to be the bearer of sad stories but its true. My mom and dad got divorced on this very day. A day 23047032947032847032948093284 people celebrate the subject matter of love. So as you can see,its not my favorite holiday. But even with a chipped heart and a broken family, i still want it all. My heart remains hopeful...HAPPY VALENTINES DAY
Although i remain single and i bash Valentines day, doesn't mean i never experienced it. Its been a few yrs since I've celebrated. Every one after that I've always had a valentine. But every year I've gained a deeper appreciation and love for myself and how far I've com along since then. Being in my last relationship, i did the worst thing a person could ever do to themselves. I lost myself and enveloped my world around his to cater his needs before mine. Stupid move? Yes...did i regret it? At that time no,but now? Yes. You do the unthinkable when your in love, your self moral judgment is clouded and compromised in the given situation to accommodate another. Every phase is a lesson learned.
But like every story ever told, there's always another behind it. Valentines Day is a reminder of my broken family. Sorry to be the bearer of sad stories but its true. My mom and dad got divorced on this very day. A day 23047032947032847032948093284 people celebrate the subject matter of love. So as you can see,its not my favorite holiday. But even with a chipped heart and a broken family, i still want it all. My heart remains hopeful...HAPPY VALENTINES DAY
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