Its been more than a few minutes...hrs maybe. I was never really consistent with it. I guess a apart of me wanted to ignore the on going fact of my "glocs" aka glaucoma. It felt like dead weight trailing after me. I wanted it lifted,so i left it behind and blocked it from view ( as if that's even possible). It wasn't something i could ignore very easily, the clarity of my vision daily is just a reminder of its presence. Plus, its sooooo depressing talking about it. But i am. I haven't talked to friends about it, never brought it up ever. If they asked , i kept it simple, to avoid having to over share or keep nagging about the same thing but different scenario ish business. Its exhausting sometimes, sometimes i have to remind myself to set my alarm just to wake up to keep reg schedules with meds. Its exhausting. There are days where i wanna say "fuck it" and go with out it but then it hits me a few seconds later and i wake up frantic and having the urgency to take them. I never want to take my sight for granted again,I'm blessed to have what i have.
On a lighter note, i've found things to calm me down. I started making bracelets :3. Kind of random ..i know. But i've been making them for friends and what not. Instantly calms me down when I'm in a pickle jam.
On a lighter note, i've found things to calm me down. I started making bracelets :3. Kind of random ..i know. But i've been making them for friends and what not. Instantly calms me down when I'm in a pickle jam.
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